Remembering my brother
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Today, it is with the heaviest of hearts that I write to you.
This morning I got a call that no one wants to receive.
My brother died.
I do not know the cause of his death yet.
It could have been an accident, but my head wants to go to suicide. The puzzle piece would fit, even though he never mentioned it or said "I can't take this anymore."
Above is a picture during his visit to Florida. He was supposed to come this winter but with Covid and his hospital stay in February, it just wasn't happening.
Recently, I even said I will come visit you! And of course, I feel guilty for not having planned it earlier.
What you might not know is that Marcel, my brother, suffered from schizophrenia for 30 years.
He had the kindest of hearts.
He called almost every day.
He loved animals.
He loved telling jokes.
He loved supporting a child in Haiti.
He loved nature.
He loved giving gifts.
He loved food.
And so much more.
I was on the phone with his social worker on Sunday. My brother hadn't responded in a few days. I was asking for connect groups that he could join. He wanted to connect so badly. He invited coworkers to bake cookies. He invited another coworker to visit the Fleamarket. He met one for a cup of coffee.
And I was planning with my cousins to have him over for a few days over Christmas, since he couldn't be with me this year.
He had a rough life for sure, and yet I have some beautiful memories with him.
Maybe this is all I can manage to write today, as the tears are burning my eyes.
I know how important it is to connect. From human to human.
I know you are a connector, because you are reading this.
Go do, what you are good at. And connect.
Because one of our greatest human needs is to belong.
I know he found his peace.
I will be mourning.
Talk to you next week.
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You are loved. Deeply loved. Loved beyond measure.
Until next time,
Isabelle Call or write for a free life coaching consultation #732-331-2246 Isabellestephensoncoach@gmail.com